I was heaps proud of reaching another long-awaited milestone, restarting my blog, when suddenly I felt sick! Both my mental health and physical health have taken a few hard blows since this year began, which means I've been making as opposed to waiting to find time for all the good stuff like prepping home-cooked meals to keep in the freezer, going to the gym like 2-3 times per week, spending time in the steam room (quiet time), making sure I sleep at a decent time but all this good stuff, as good as it is for me couldn't stop the hurricane which was coming my way. As much as the good stuff can help me bounce back, the dark, sick days seemed more complicated to avoid and manage.
Last year in November, I booked to see a specialist who was booked out till February and hoped that someone would cancel so I could jump into that spot. Wishful thinking, right?
So finally, it was my turn. I presented for the first booking and said everything without forgetting even one detail. As exhausting as this first session was, it was finally over.
The second session came sooner than I expected. I prepared and presented on the day to find out from the specialist that everything we discussed during the initial session was deleted from the computer.
"nightmare," he said.
Yes. When one pours their deepest held fears, concerns and personal details, it is exhausting, but one can at least feel some sense of gratitude that it is invested time and energy for a positive step in the right direction; after all, what is worth more than one's physical and mental health (?). Someone has placed a price, and I paid $433 for the first session, with the health care chipping in a little over a third.
So, it was nearly August and finally, I faced the cold winds of my personalised hurricane. This specialist wasn't able to help me.
So I've spent many days in limbo. This hurricane made me realise that without real professional support, like now, I might even end up in a bed in the hospital.
So, today I spent it back at home. Yesterday, I could bounce back into action, though I couldn't have done it without various forms of meds, vitamins and home-cooked meals; yeah, I hadn't eaten much since last week.
I am still wrestling (figurative) with competing ideas for this blog and the website. I mean, it is all online-based, and who knows what 2024 could bring, purely talking about @eattrainplayfitness. I am two and a half years from being able to practice as a Clinical Nutritionist.
So, tomorrow (this morning), it is back to work, and the bills don't pay themselves. I enjoy my current role.
In summary, next week, I have an appointment with a community centre service who says it is their role to connect me to the professional services I need. That is a win!
The decision is made. The first main tree trunk topic will explore how we reached a state of chaos within our health services, obviously not from a political perspective, and how people achieve their essential human need to see a competent health professional.
Signed.
@eattrainplayfitness
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